Out of the Ashes

"touch my world with your fingertips and watch what will happen, what dreams will come to follow - we could have forever in any dream you want, but staying here we will never know where life could take us!?" ac

"i'm lying here unable to express the feelings of my unworthy soul. and writing about you and everything you mean to me has become as impossible task as catching a star in my hand. frivilous words could not even begin to tell the story of you heart . . . the story your eyes seem to tell so well. days and nights become endless . . . now what would you say if i could prove i wasn't crazy?"

"today... from all the little moments to all the smiles, you had my complete attention. as i am watching you i am filled with great anticipation waiting for your next move - knowing it will captivate me more than the last. as we talk, my heart beats faster and my stomach is full of butterflies. i feel as if i don't deserve to be here in your presence. as we are sitting at this table i wonder what other people are thinking. do they see the beauty that you hold? do you captivate their souls as you have mine? the feeling of invincibility comes over me as we are breathing in this fresh air of conversation. i have to admit i am barely listening to your words, but looking into your eyes. they seems to hold a whole new world for anyone who takes the time to look. they reveal the hidden secrets of your soul, and i am slowing finding your hopes and dreams and praying that one day i will see myself there as well. tell me... what do my eyes say? lok at me and tell me what you see ... can...

"I don't think that i've ever told you that the way your eyes dance brings a smile to my face. i guess it's just one of those things that i have put on my "to do" list. those good ideas i get that never actually show their face. funny how a person can have so much to say to another and only end up smiling, yet screaming inside with all they have in them. hoping that maybe their eyes or expressions may give a little bit of what is going on inside of their heads (and hearts) away to the person that has captured their attention. I have been here once before, but never with you... never with a person that not only bring joy to my life, but who makes me want to be a better person and who makes all the cares and concerns of my life seem very insignificant. and now that i am at this place where words seem to fail me, i can honestly say that i have no where else to look. so for now, i will wait for the day that you notice me for all that i am and the day that i slowl...

as i am here in this extrodinary moment as i am thinking of you... as my hands are towards you, can you feel me, can you feel my thoughts, can you feel my head spinning with all the crazy ideas of me and you or just feel my energy cause my heart is screaming inside and praying that you'll feel even the slightest thing from inside of me"

'i want so badly to touch your face with my trembling hands... and there are so many things muddled up in my head that are begging me to form words" ac

"in my head i always see my life going so differently then in pans out. and the more i see you the more i wish i was living my dreams rather than this hidden unkept path i am headed down (the one that renders me unnoticed) i'm not sure what more i can do to make you see me, cause right now (in this reality) not only to you not see me but your glances pass through me like the light passes through a window (which is only good for letting light thru to the other side) while trying to find the one that you can't live without. i guess all i can ask for is a thought my way and a hope that maybe one day you will see me (not thru me) and smile - and somehow in that moment everything will make sense and i'll hold my breath hoping that the bubble won't burst . . . or maybe i'm just a big dreamer" ac