Showing posts from January, 2006

Where's the Passion

I have been thinking about my life recently... and come to the impression that ... "man this life is boring and predictable and useless.. and starting to lose meaning...and nothing make sense... and i'm not happy or joyful.. or anything .. in fact i can be pretty apathetic at times and when i look around me i see a lot of the same things.. in a lot of people i know... although some do hide it better than othes.."
so i guess the questions are...
where along the way have we traded in love for hate,
sedentary or active, passionate for bored . . .
when have we decided that living a life style after
Jesus Christ was boring and laid back...
and how did we ever get here... into this predictable everyday existence that drains every bit of life and enjoyment out of everything we do...
we get up ... do our thing... go to work or school or whatever it is we do... we come home we eat we do homework, take care of the kids or watch t.v. or go on the internet or listen to the new.. …

to the other side

"if my life made sense
to me right now..
i wonder how
much i would lean
on you.
the fact that
i know you're
ahead of this
troubled time
has brought me
closer to you
in ways that
wouldn't have
through any
other circumstances
then these...
in order to come
out of this alive
i need you
to come to
my rescue
and be the one
i count on
when everyone
else around me
has disappeared
and i have all but given up.
it is the time when
all i have to hold
onto is hope
to get me to
the other side
of this
without drowning
this is when i have
needed you
the most
and you have
shown me yourself
your heart
And i
will try not to
forget this time
with you.
I will remember it
as nothing less
then when i
fell in love
with my
for the first time."

greater is he who is in me then he who is in the world

Authenticity is a difficult idea ...
when i look at how many people know me
and understand me as
i can't put too many names
down that fit into that catagory. I've been trying to think through why that is. ... i mean i'm sure that it's different for every person - we've all been through our issues and our problems that have brought us to this specific time in our lives and all the minutes and hours that turn into years.. have brought us here.. with all the genetic and social aspects of what that means.
SO... when is it that i chose to be authentic with someone (or at least start to be ... different people see different authenticity level of you at a time - i mean by saying that you can be kind of authentic with one person and be more authentic as to who you really are towards another .. and you slowly build up from there.. ) okey - once you start deciding or choosing to be authentic and open up to another person .. i think you start off slowly.. showing parts of you…

thoughts on my heart

we are on an adventure – we have been put here and half the time we have no idea exactly what kind of story we are in and we rarely question the bigger picture – we get so caught up in our worlds and the soap opera’s around us that we forget that there is a bigger story and a bigger reason that we are here. But, our heart, the place where Jesus resides, knows exactly why we are here and God speaks to us through it – pulling us towards his greater purpose. You can drown out his voice by keeping busy and always making sure that you are always going- like the energizer bunny with a purpose and a plan – but have you ever stopped to wonder if your plan has anything to do with the plan you have designed in your head – have you recently stopped to listen – and I mean really listen to what God is saying to your heart… have you heard him whispering to you late at night – asking you if you want something more – if you are thirsty for what this world can never supply? This voice is not asking yo…

calling out to my heart

"confusion is rushing
over me
like a thick black blanket
or like the clouds cover
the stars.
Lost in this state,
as it envelops all
sources of light
that were leading
me anywhere.
All I have left
to go by is the
sound of your
voice as it speaks to
my heart.
As it leads me
towards anywhere
but here.
At times
it's hard to even
tell the difference
between you
and the evil one
that comes to prey
on my fear.
but, if you keep
calling me
I will always answer
and keep following you .
I promise to
never give up on you.
Please reassure me
the same."