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I want freedom, that's what I want! and that's what you should want!

" You can't fight city hall. Death and taxes. Don't talk about politics of religion. This is all equivalent of the enemy propaganda rolling across the picket linne. Lay down G.I. Lay down G.I.! We saw it all through the 20th century, and now, in the 21st century, it's time to stand up and realize that we should not allow ourselves to be crammed into this rat maze. We should not submit to dehumanization. I don't know about you, but I'm concerned with what's happening in this world. I'm concerned with the structure. I'm concerned with the systems of control: those that control my life, and should seek to control it even more. I want freedom, that's what I want! And that's what you should want! It's up to each and every one of us to turn loose and just suck up the greed, the hatred, the envy, and yes, the insecurities, because that is the central mode of control; Make us feel pathetic, small, so we'll willingly give up our sovereignty,…


" There are two kinds of sufferers in this world: those who suffer from a lack of life, and those who suffere from an over-abundance of life. I have always found myself in the second catagory. When you come to think of it, almost all human behavoir and activity is not, essentially, any different from animal behavoir. The most advanced technologies and craftmanship brings us, at best, up to the super-chimpanzee level. Actually, the gap between, say, Plato or Neitzche, and the average human is greater than the gap that chimpanzee and the average human. The realm of the real spirit, the true artist, the saint, the philosopher, is rarely achieved. Why so few? Why is world history and evolution not stories of progress, rather this endless and futile addition of zeros? No greater values have developed. Hell, the greeks 3,000 years ago were just as advanced as we are. So, what are these barriers that keep people from reaching anywhere near thier real potential. The answer to that can be…

Dreams vs. the waking life

"You know, they say that dreams are only real as long as they last. Couldn't you say the same things about life? See, there's a lot of us that are out there that are mapping that mind-body relationship of dreams. We're called the oneironauts; We're the explorers of the dream world. Really, it's just about the two opposing states of consciousness, whichc don't really oppose at all. See, in the waking world, the neurosystem inhibits the activation of the vividness of memories. . . . So, you have these seratonic neurons that inhibit hallucinations, that they themselves are inhibited, during REM (rapid eye movement) sleep. See, this allows dreams to appear real, while preventing competition from other perceptual processes. This is why dreams are mistaken for reality. To the funtional system of neural activity that creates our world, there is no difference between dreaming a perception and an action, and actually the waking perception and action."

Dream Guy…

Boat Car Guy

"It's like you come onto this planet with a crayon box. No you may get the 8 pack, or you may get the 16 pack... but it's all in what yo udo with the crayons, the colors, that you're given. DOn't worry about drawing within the lines, or coloring outside the lines; I say color outside the lines, you know what I mean Color right off the page. DON'T BOX ME IN! We're in motion to the ocean. We are not land-locked, I'll tell you that!"

- Bill Wise(waking life)

The powers that be want us to be passive observers

"Sure, the media tries to put a sad face on things, painting them up as great human tragedies. But, we all know the function of the media has never been to eliminate the evils of the world, no. Their job is to persuade us to accept those evils and get used to living with them. The powers-that-be want us to be passive observers. And, they haven't given us any other options outside the occasional, purley symbolic, participatory act of voting. You want the puppet on the right? or the puppet on the left? I feel that the time has come to project my own inadequacies and dissatisfactions into the socio-political and scientific schemes. Let my own lack of a voice be heard..."
- self destructive man (waking life)

The media plays major roles in our lives, and it is virtually inescapable in our North American society (and many other places in the world) - It is the main method for distributing news and informations to the public. But, in our corporate society, the media is heavily …

So much of our experience is intangible

"So much of our experience is intangible. So much of what we perceive cannot be expressed; it's unspeakable. yet, when we communicate with one another, and we feel that we have connected, and we think that we are understood, I think we have a feeling of almost spiritual communion, and that feeling might be trasient, but I think it's what we live for." - Girl (waking life)

Waking Life

If you haven't ever watched the movie Waking Life, I would highly recommend it! I really enjoyed being questioned from all sides of the ideas of different people and it brings up some really good conversation stuff. the move is in some sort of weird cartoonish state of real people that said their lines in the movie. There is not real plot, just a guy who is having a weird dream that brings him to question life and dreaming in general.

" They say dreams are real only as long as they last, couldn't you say the same thing about life?"

So i am going to post some of the ideas (or quotes etc) from different parts of the movie and maybe start some conversations about it ... see what some of you think of the idea's

the thought of you

"It's been so long since
i've heard from you.
sometimes i wonder
what you're up too
or how you're doing.
if you're happy or sad
or just plain appathetic
(which was never like you)
i guess i've just been
missing you a little more
than usual.
It's not that i'm not
over the love that never
existed, just
for some reason
the thought of you
seems to always bring a smile
to my face.
I was remembering
the days back then
when you captivated
me more then you ever realized
(and it was more than i could handle)
The thought of that smile of yours
did wonders for me
and your presence was
always aniticipated
beyond words
and the way you lived you life
i admired so much in you.
I wouldn't wish away
any of the moments we spent together
cause they are filled with wonderful
with as few words
as possible
i loved you
more then i fear i
will ever love again
and that scares me to death
cause i am left with the
memory of how you
made me feel
and to wonder
what it will
take to exceed the
amount of love t…

f a l l i n g

"i'm watching myself
as i fall through the
of my disessembled life
i know
there is nothing
i can do
to prevent this
precarious fall
cause now
my hands are
slowly slipping off
this crumbling ledge
i am left hanging here
my dangerous thoughts
and my prayer
for you
to catch me
before i hit
the ground"

exam and essay time

sorry for the lack of posts lately..
it has not been my intention to leave
my blog for this long
i promise to
get back to my
usual blogging as soon as possible!

I'll be seeing you

" Cathedral bells were tolling
and our hearts sang on
was it the spell of Paris
or the April dawn?
who knows if we shall meet again?
but when the morning chimes,
ring sweet again

I'll be seeing you
in all the old firmilar places
that this heart of mine embraces
all the day through
in that small cafe,
the park across the way
the children's carouse,
the chesnut trees
the wishing well

I'll be seeing you in every
lovely summers day
in everything that's light and gay
i'll always think of you that way
i'll ifnd you in the morning sun
and when the night is new
i'll be looking at the moon
but i'll be seeing you"

great song... since my busyness as caused some lack of writing .. i thought i would share with you a song that i really like...

my gift

"Precious Lord,
i love you more then my words could
ever say
and my actions
will ever show
as my life goes up
and down
more times in
a day then a rollercoater
your prescence
has brought me peace
that is
undeserved in many way
and on many levels.
although you know
my stuggles
and love me despite them
your peace and your
faithfulness teaches
me more and more each day.
i am more then eternally greatful
for your love
cause when there is nothing else
i have you.
and you is more then
enough -
the nearness of you
in my life
brings me joy throughout
all I am and all i do,
and even though i may
put my life in the hands of
other things -
with you is where
i want to be for the rest of my life
and i am more than willing to keep trying
to be the person you see in me.
until the day
i see you in heaven
my heart is in my hand
and i am
giving it to you
a small a token as it is
it's all here
it's all yours"


not so practical??

"where do we go from here?
whats the next step -
i'm asking because
i want to know what you're thinking!
i'm not sure that i can say goodbye
to this unsearched hole
we have seemed to
dig beneath us.
to leave behind
the undiscovered possibilities
(which could be endless)
i'm afraid to even open
my mouth
because of what might fall
out of it.
i know that it's not logical
to open up a gate that
has no place showing it's
but i wish we could
have seen where this would
bring us.
and the sensible thing
would be to see
how life goes and where it brings us
. . .
but what if it brought us here...
here is where we are
right now
and right now ...
i want to spill out my
thoughts out for you
to hear ...
cause if you don't
then i just might
regret the fact that
you left
as my heart screamed
with all it's might
and my just head
kept telling it
to shut up
. . .
and you leave
without a clue"


hear my unsaid words

"everything i
could ever hope
for is standing right
in front of me
and i let it pass me by
(without even a flinch)
i don't want to sit
back and let you
miss this
(miss us)
but i'm too
afraid and insecure to
believe that
i could ever be
good enough for
(let alone you)
. . .
is it too much
to ask for you
to want me
. . .
to need me?
. . .
before i send up flares
that show you
the writings
on my heart.
i want you
to find me
captivating -
to see me for all
i am and love me
despite my
to see me
and my naked
and want no
one else

is that too much
to ask?"

This was somethign that Jann Arden wrote - she keeps a jounal on her website ( and this is what she had to say today ... and when i read it it really made me think... and if you know me at all you know that i love the idea of love - so here is another view that i find very refreshing - so read it if you want ... or not...

"All of This
05-Nov-2005 04:28 pm

Love is the most mysterious of all things. What it is exactly, defies words and explanations. It’s just something that exists. It perpetuates all life. It is the force that binds the stars to the sky, the force that holds the sea just barely at the shore. It is love that keeps the balance of all things. War is the result of “loveless-ness.” It is the absence of love that causes all pain. When it touches you, love that is, you cannot help but submit. You risk all things for the sake of having love in your life; for having that ONE love - the one that is meant for you and only you. The one you remember when you bre…


"how do you not
see me?
and how
can i feel
so passionatly
when it
as never even
crossed your mind?
and how can i see
something that is
so far beyond


hear what i'm not saying

"it's the way you smile
that melts my heart.
how you can make
me love you more
as each second passes
and as each day slowly
crawls by
i can only hope to
one day
get to know your
beautiful soul
as i know my own.
can you read
all my eyes are saying?
can you hear how
much love
my heart beats for you?
cause if you listen closely
they will tell you
everything my
mouth could never
form into words."

the line between dreaming and reality

"I am finally willing to give this up.
I've held on so tightly
to this dance that we never had
and memories
only i remember
(the ones I made up in my head)
and a dream that I thought
could be relality
that if i don't give it up now,
i may loose the ability
to discern between
the two...
so i guess
all that is left to
do is wait
and see
if there is really
someone out there
who will love
the me
i am so afraid of