Out of the Ashes

" You can't fight city hall. Death and taxes. Don't talk about politics of religion. This is all equivalent of the enemy propaganda rolling across the picket linne. Lay down G.I. Lay down G.I.! We saw it all through the 20th century, and now, in the 21st century, it's time to stand up and realize that we should not allow ourselves to be crammed into this rat maze. We should not submit to dehumanization. I don't know about you, but I'm concerned with what's happening in this world. I'm concerned with the structure. I'm concerned with the systems of control: those that control my life, and should seek to control it even more. I want freedom, that's what I want! And that's what you should want! It's up to each and every one of us to turn loose and just suck up the greed, the hatred, the envy, and yes, the insecurities, because that is the central mode of control; Make us feel pathetic, small, so we'll willingly give up our sovereignty,

" There are two kinds of sufferers in this world: those who suffer from a lack of life, and those who suffere from an over-abundance of life. I have always found myself in the second catagory. When you come to think of it, almost all human behavoir and activity is not, essentially, any different from animal behavoir. The most advanced technologies and craftmanship brings us, at best, up to the super-chimpanzee level. Actually, the gap between, say, Plato or Neitzche, and the average human is greater than the gap that chimpanzee and the average human. The realm of the real spirit, the true artist, the saint, the philosopher, is rarely achieved. Why so few? Why is world history and evolution not stories of progress, rather this endless and futile addition of zeros? No greater values have developed. Hell, the greeks 3,000 years ago were just as advanced as we are. So, what are these barriers that keep people from reaching anywhere near thier real potential. The answer to that can be

"You know, they say that dreams are only real as long as they last. Couldn't you say the same things about life? See, there's a lot of us that are out there that are mapping that mind-body relationship of dreams. We're called the oneironauts; We're the explorers of the dream world. Really, it's just about the two opposing states of consciousness, whichc don't really oppose at all. See, in the waking world, the neurosystem inhibits the activation of the vividness of memories. . . . So, you have these seratonic neurons that inhibit hallucinations, that they themselves are inhibited, during REM (rapid eye movement) sleep. See, this allows dreams to appear real, while preventing competition from other perceptual processes. This is why dreams are mistaken for reality. To the funtional system of neural activity that creates our world, there is no difference between dreaming a perception and an action, and actually the waking perception and action." Dream Guy

"It's like you come onto this planet with a crayon box. No you may get the 8 pack, or you may get the 16 pack... but it's all in what yo udo with the crayons, the colors, that you're given. DOn't worry about drawing within the lines, or coloring outside the lines; I say color outside the lines, you know what I mean Color right off the page. DON'T BOX ME IN! We're in motion to the ocean. We are not land-locked, I'll tell you that!" - Bill Wise(waking life)

"Sure, the media tries to put a sad face on things, painting them up as great human tragedies. But, we all know the function of the media has never been to eliminate the evils of the world, no. Their job is to persuade us to accept those evils and get used to living with them. The powers-that-be want us to be passive observers. And, they haven't given us any other options outside the occasional, purley symbolic, participatory act of voting. You want the puppet on the right? or the puppet on the left? I feel that the time has come to project my own inadequacies and dissatisfactions into the socio-political and scientific schemes. Let my own lack of a voice be heard..." - self destructive man (waking life) The media plays major roles in our lives, and it is virtually inescapable in our North American society (and many other places in the world) - It is the main method for distributing news and informations to the public. But, in our corporate society, the media is heavily i

"So much of our experience is intangible. So much of what we perceive cannot be expressed; it's unspeakable. yet, when we communicate with one another, and we feel that we have connected, and we think that we are understood, I think we have a feeling of almost spiritual communion, and that feeling might be trasient, but I think it's what we live for." - Girl (waking life)

If you haven't ever watched the movie Waking Life, I would highly recommend it! I really enjoyed being questioned from all sides of the ideas of different people and it brings up some really good conversation stuff. the move is in some sort of weird cartoonish state of real people that said their lines in the movie. There is not real plot, just a guy who is having a weird dream that brings him to question life and dreaming in general. " They say dreams are real only as long as they last, couldn't you say the same thing about life?" So i am going to post some of the ideas (or quotes etc) from different parts of the movie and maybe start some conversations about it ... see what some of you think of the idea's

"It's been so long since i've heard from you. sometimes i wonder what you're up too or how you're doing. if you're happy or sad or just plain appathetic (which was never like you) i guess i've just been missing you a little more than usual. It's not that i'm not over the love that never existed, just for some reason the thought of you seems to always bring a smile to my face. I was remembering the days back then when you captivated me more then you ever realized (and it was more than i could handle) The thought of that smile of yours did wonders for me and your presence was always aniticipated beyond words and the way you lived you life i admired so much in you. I wouldn't wish away any of the moments we spent together cause they are filled with wonderful memories. with as few words as possible i loved you more then i fear i will ever love again and that scares me to death cause i am left with the memory of how you made me feel and to wonder wha

"i'm watching myself as i fall through the cracks of my disessembled life and i know there is nothing i can do to prevent this precarious fall cause now my hands are slowly slipping off this crumbling ledge and i am left hanging here with my dangerous thoughts and my prayer for you to catch me before i hit the ground"

sorry for the lack of posts lately.. it has not been my intention to leave my blog for this long i promise to get back to my usual blogging as soon as possible!

" Cathedral bells were tolling and our hearts sang on was it the spell of Paris or the April dawn? who knows if we shall meet again? but when the morning chimes, ring sweet again I'll be seeing you in all the old firmilar places that this heart of mine embraces all the day through in that small cafe, the park across the way the children's carouse, the chesnut trees the wishing well I'll be seeing you in every lovely summers day in everything that's light and gay i'll always think of you that way i'll ifnd you in the morning sun and when the night is new i'll be looking at the moon but i'll be seeing you" great song... since my busyness as caused some lack of writing .. i thought i would share with you a song that i really like...

"Precious Lord, i love you more then my words could ever say and my actions will ever show ... as my life goes up and down more times in a day then a rollercoater your prescence has brought me peace that is undeserved in many way and on many levels. although you know my stuggles and love me despite them your peace and your faithfulness teaches me more and more each day. i am more then eternally greatful for your love cause when there is nothing else ... i have you. and you is more then enough - the nearness of you in my life brings me joy throughout all I am and all i do, and even though i may put my life in the hands of other things - with you is where i want to be for the rest of my life and i am more than willing to keep trying to be the person you see in me. until the day i see you in heaven my heart is in my hand and i am giving it to you a small a token as it is it's all here and it's all yours" ac

"where do we go from here? whats the next step - i'm asking because i want to know what you're thinking! i'm not sure that i can say goodbye to this unsearched hole we have seemed to dig beneath us. to leave behind the undiscovered possibilities (which could be endless) i'm afraid to even open my mouth because of what might fall out of it. i know that it's not logical to open up a gate that has no place showing it's secrets but i wish we could have seen where this would bring us. and the sensible thing would be to see how life goes and where it brings us . . . but what if it brought us here... here is where we are right now and right now ... i want to spill out my thoughts out for you to hear ... cause if you don't then i just might regret the fact that you left as my heart screamed with all it's might and my just head kept telling it to shut up . . . and you leave without a clue" ac

"everything i could ever hope for is standing right in front of me and i let it pass me by (without even a flinch) i don't want to sit back and let you miss this (miss us) but i'm too afraid and insecure to believe that i could ever be good enough for anyone (let alone you) . . . is it too much to ask for you to want me . . . to need me? . . . before i send up flares that show you the writings on my heart. i want you to find me captivating - to see me for all i am and love me despite my failures. to see me and my naked heart and want no one else is that too much to ask?" ac

This was somethign that Jann Arden wrote - she keeps a jounal on her website ( www.jannarden.com ) and this is what she had to say today ... and when i read it it really made me think... and if you know me at all you know that i love the idea of love - so here is another view that i find very refreshing - so read it if you want ... or not... "All of This 05-Nov-2005 04:28 pm Love is the most mysterious of all things. What it is exactly, defies words and explanations. It’s just something that exists. It perpetuates all life. It is the force that binds the stars to the sky, the force that holds the sea just barely at the shore. It is love that keeps the balance of all things. War is the result of “loveless-ness.” It is the absence of love that causes all pain. When it touches you, love that is, you cannot help but submit. You risk all things for the sake of having love in your life; for having that ONE love - the one that is meant for you and only you. The one you remember when you

"how do you not see me? and how can i feel so passionatly about us when it as never even crossed your mind? and how can i see something that is so far beyond possiblity?" ac

"it's the way you smile that melts my heart. how you can make me love you more as each second passes and as each day slowly crawls by i can only hope to one day get to know your beautiful soul as i know my own. can you read all my eyes are saying? can you hear how much love my heart beats for you? cause if you listen closely they will tell you everything my mouth could never form into words." ac

"I am finally willing to give this up. I've held on so tightly to this dance that we never had and memories only i remember (the ones I made up in my head) and a dream that I thought could be relality that if i don't give it up now, i may loose the ability to discern between the two... so i guess all that is left to do is wait and see if there is really someone out there who will love the me i am so afraid of showing" ac