Out of the Ashes

Here's wishing you all a very merry Christmas and a happy new year!

"could you please let me up from underneath your foot now?" ac

For all of you readers out there, and those of you who don't read very much I am in the middle of reading some books that I think would be beneficial everyone. There is a book for men and women and about unveiling the mystery of both sexes souls. They are written by John Eldredge (and his wife Stasi coauthored for Captivating). It isn't enough just to read the one for your particular sex either - because each book has a unique thing to say about the opposite sex and it is all something that we both should hear about ourselves and the other - and gives you glimpses into the heart of the oposite sex that helps you understand them and where they are coming from and how the heart can be damaged and broken so easily as you grow up. Anyway, I can see these books having a big effect on the way we treat one another and how we treat ourselves and how we need to come into who we are and draw closer to God so he can help fix the part of our lives that were damaged. I know there are som

"Lord, I want to be used. I want you to use me as a star points towards heaven ... towards you. Leading others to your aboundless love that surpasses anything that i've ever understood. Take my hands and touch lives for your glory. In this world of darkness as your light is growing dim in this world it's hard to shine for you when I am dealing with so many attacks from Satan. It's hard to keep pointing at you ... please hold my hand up and help point it in the right direction cause it's dark down here and my arm is getting tired. Anchor me in you and show me all you have for me ... all my beauty, all that you see in my heart. Teach me through example and when I get lost, as will enevitably happen, guide me to your arms and remind me again that I am worth fighting for" ac

Never Give Up On Me { Jann Arden / Russell Broom / Robert Foster } "i’ve made more mistakes than i can count upon my finger tips i have been ashamed and i have felt as guilty as all sin counting every tear that drops cannot account for any let the past remain behind me now fill it up with goodness i’ll drink it down with love never give up on me i will never give up on you you’re everything i need oh just look at what we’ve been through so far so good i have wished on every star that shot across my broken heart i am still amazed that you came true i have kissed a hundred lips but none of them compare to this i have found myself inside of you you forgive my sad regrets and i forgive myself never give up on me i will never give up on you you’re everything i need oh just look at what we’ve been through never give up on me i will never give up on you you’re everything i need oh just look at what we’ve been through i love you"

I just thought i would all tell you today that I love my cat. As soon as i figure out how to get pictures on this freakin internet page I will show you all a picture of Scotty (or stinky as we endearingly call him around these parts) ... but until then I just think he is the cutest thing ever and since he is sitting here staring at me wanting me to play with him I just got the urge to let everyone know that he is maybe annoying and maybe wierd at times but he is very unique and his personality makes me laugh ... so there it is...

Sorry For Myself Written by - Jann Arden "I've been on my hands and knees Crawling towards eternity Looking for the piece of me that always got away And I've been so afraid to stand my ground So I simply shut my mouth Close my eyes Bite my lip And swallow every tear I can't do anything I don't believe in anyone I just feel sorry for myself all day long All day long Look inside my body baby See the twists and turns inside it Every blinding curve that drives you right around the bend I know you've had it up to there with all my chaos and confusion I am living a delusion and I do not give a damn I can't do anything I don't need anybody else I just feel sorry for myself For myself Look into my heart and tell me I am a complete disaster Wasn't that what you were after Always thought it was Wasn't I complete desire Filthy ash without the fire You could not have been much higher without some kind of drug"

"Two women are stiting at a table talking: 1st woman : Time just dissovles with these quick moving particles that are swirling away. Either I'm moving fast, or time is, but never both simultaneously. 2nd woman : Such a strange paradox. I mean, well techinically, I'm closer to the end of my life than I've ever been. I actually feel, more than ever, that I have all the time in the world. When I was younger, there was a desperation, a desire for certainty, like thre was an end to the path and I had to get there. 1st woman : I know what you mean, because I can remember thinking, oh someday, like in my mid-thirties maybe, everything is going to just somehow gel and settle, just end. It was like there was this plateau, and it was just waiting for me and I was climbing up it. When I got to the top, all growth and change would just stop, even exhileration. But, that hasn't happened like that, thank goodness. I think that what we don't take into account when we're

"It doesn't interest me whatyou do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your hearts desires. It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of just being alive. It doesn't interest me what planetes are surrounding your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or if you have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hid, or fade it, or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with the wilderness and let ecstacy fill you to the tips of your fingers to the bottom of your toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human. I want to know if you can disapoint another and still be true

" 1st guy: If the world that we are force to accept is false, and nothing is true, then everything is possible. 2nd guy: On the way to discovering what we love, we will find everything we hate, everything that blocks our paht and what we desire. 3rd guy: It'll never be comfortable for those who seek what is not onthe market 2nd guy: A systematic questioning of the idea of happiness. 4th guy: We'll cut the vocal chords of every empowered speaker. We'll yank the social symbols through the looking glass. We'll devalue socieities currency. 3rd guy: ...to confront the firmiliar. Soceity is a fraud so complete and venal that it demands to be destroyed beyong the power of memory to recall it's existence. 1st guy: Where there is fire, we will carry gasoline. 2nd guy: ...To interrupt the continuim of everyday experience and all the normal expectations that go with it. 3rd guy: ..To live as if something actually depended on one's actions. 4th guy: ..to ruptu

" I had a friend once who told me that the worst mistake that you can make is to think that you are alive, when really you're asleep in life's waiting room. The trick is to combine your waking rational abilities with the infinite possibilities of your dreams, because if you can do that, you can do anything. Did you ever have a job that you hated, worked really hard at? Long, hard day at work, finally you get to go home, get in bed, close your eyes ... and immediately you wake up and realize that the whole day at work had been a dream. It's bad enough that you sell your waking life for minimun wage, but now they get your dreams for free!" - Guy Forsythe (Waking Life) Crazy thought eh?

"wasn't it the way that our laughs filled the night and how our conversation felt so fresh, that made everything seem to finally feel so right. and now it is all seeming to come to such an abrupt stop - faster then this started (even though I knew this was inevitable) . . . it stops with you following a dream that you deserve so very much and me none the wiser to the what might have been. you've become so close to me in such a short time that i feel i've known you for years... and still i guess this will be as far as i get to telling you my true thoughts and feelings . . . for now" ac

" Wanderer: Hey Wiley: Hey Wanderer: Are you a dreamer? Wiley : Yeah Wanderer: I haven't seen too many of you around lately. Things have been tough lately for dreamers. They say dreaming is dead and noone does it anymore. it's not dead, it's just been forgotten, removed from our language. Nobody teaches it, so nobody knows it exists. The dreamer is banished to obscurity. Well, I'm trying to change all that, and I hope you are too... by dreaming, everyday. Dreaming with out hands and dreaming with our minds. Our planet is facing the greatest problems it's ever faced...ever. So, whatever you do, don't be bored. This is absolutly the most exciting time we could have possibly hoped to be alive, and things are just getting started." -Waking Life *I love this one!!!

"Ethan: I keep thinking about something you said. Julie: Something I said? Ethan: Yeah. About how you often feel like you're observing your life from the perspective of an old women about to die. You remember that? Julie: Yeah. I still feel that way sometimes; like i'm looking back on my lif. Like my waking life is her memories. Ethan: Mmm, exactly. I heard that Tim Leary said, as he was dying, that he was looking forward to the moment when his body was dead, but his brain was still alive - you know how they say that there's still 6-12 mins of brain activity after everything else has shut down? Julie: Mmm Ethan: And a second of dream conciousness, right? Well, thats infinitly longer then a waking second. You know what I'm saying? Julie: Oh yeah yeah yeah, definitely. For instance, I wake up and it's 10:12 and then I go back to sleep and I have those long, intricate, beautiful dreams that seem to last for hours and then I wake up and it's...10:13 Ethan: Yeah