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Merry Christmas

Here's wishing you all a very merry Christmas and a happy new year!


"could you please
let me up
from underneath
your foot now?"


Captivating/Wild at Heart

For all of you readers out there, and those of you who don't read very much
I am in the middle of reading some books that I think would be beneficial everyone.
There is a book for men and women and about unveiling the mystery of both sexes souls.
They are written by John Eldredge (and his wife Stasi coauthored for Captivating).

It isn't enough just to read the one for your particular sex either - because each book has a unique thing to say about the opposite sex and it is all something that we both should hear about ourselves and the other - and gives you glimpses into the heart of the oposite sex that helps you understand them and where they are coming from and how the heart can be damaged and broken so easily as you grow up.

Anyway, I can see these books having a big effect on the way we treat one another and how we treat ourselves and how we need to come into who we are and draw closer to God so he can help fix the part of our lives that were damaged.

I know there are some skepti…
I want to be used.
I want you to use
me as a star points
towards heaven
towards you.
Leading others
to your aboundless
love that surpasses
that i've
ever understood.
Take my hands
and touch lives
for your glory.
In this world
of darkness
as your
light is growing dim
in this world
it's hard to
shine for you
when I am
dealing with so
many attacks from
It's hard to keep pointing
at you
please hold my
hand up
and help
point it in the
right direction
cause it's dark down here
and my arm is getting
Anchor me in you
and show me
all you have for me
all my beauty,
all that you
see in my heart.
Teach me through example
and when I get lost,
as will enevitably happen,
guide me
to your arms
and remind me
that I
am worth
fighting for"


Another Great Song I thought I'd share with you!

Never Give Up On Me
{ Jann Arden / Russell Broom / Robert Foster }

"i’ve made more mistakes than i can count upon my finger tips
i have been ashamed and i have felt as guilty as all sin
counting every tear that drops cannot account for any
let the past remain behind me now
fill it up with goodness
i’ll drink it down with love

never give up on me
i will never give up on you
you’re everything i need
oh just look at what we’ve been through
so far so good

i have wished on every star that shot across my broken heart
i am still amazed that you came true
i have kissed a hundred lips
but none of them compare to this
i have found myself inside of you
you forgive my sad regrets
and i forgive myself

never give up on me
i will never give up on you
you’re everything i need
oh just look at what we’ve been through

never give up on me
i will never give up on you
you’re everything i need
oh just look at what we’ve been through

i love you"

My Cat!

I just thought i would all tell you today that I love my cat.
As soon as i figure out how to get pictures on this freakin internet page I will
show you all a picture of Scotty (or stinky as we endearingly call him around these parts) ... but until then I just think he is the cutest thing ever and
since he is sitting here staring at me wanting me to play with him
I just got the urge to let everyone know that he is maybe annoying and
maybe wierd at times but he is very unique and his personality makes me laugh ...
so there it is...

Don"t we all feel a little bit like this sometimes???

Sorry For Myself
Written by - Jann Arden

"I've been on my hands and knees
Crawling towards eternity
Looking for the piece of me that always got away
And I've been so afraid to stand my ground
So I simply shut my mouth
Close my eyes
Bite my lip
And swallow every tear

I can't do anything
I don't believe in anyone
I just feel sorry for myself all day long
All day long

Look inside my body baby
See the twists and turns inside it
Every blinding curve that drives you right around the bend
I know you've had it up to there with all my chaos and confusion
I am living a delusion and I do not give a damn

I can't do anything
I don't need anybody else
I just feel sorry for myself
For myself

Look into my heart and tell me I am a complete disaster
Wasn't that what you were after
Always thought it was
Wasn't I complete desire
Filthy ash without the fire
You could not have been much higher without some kind of drug"

I think that what we don't take into account when we're young is our endless curiousity. thats what so great about being human

"Two women are stiting at a table talking:

1st woman: Time just dissovles with these quick moving particles that are swirling away. Either I'm moving fast, or time is, but never both simultaneously.
2nd woman: Such a strange paradox. I mean, well techinically, I'm closer to the end of my life than I've ever been. I actually feel, more than ever, that I have all the time in the world. When I was younger, there was a desperation, a desire for certainty, like thre was an end to the path and I had to get there.
1st woman:I know what you mean, because I can remember thinking, oh someday, like in my mid-thirties maybe, everything is going to just somehow gel and settle, just end. It was like there was this plateau, and it was just waiting for me and I was climbing up it. When I got to the top, all growth and change would just stop, even exhileration. But, that hasn't happened like that, thank goodness. I think that what we don't take into account when we're young i…

Love (what else is there to say)

"It doesn't interest me whatyou do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your hearts desires.
It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of just being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planetes are surrounding your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or if you have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hid, or fade it, or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with the wilderness and let ecstacy fill you to the tips of your fingers to the bottom of your toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human.
I want to know if you can disapoint another and still be true to…

it will be an intensity never before known in everyday life...

" 1st guy: If the world that we are force to accept is false, and nothing is true, then everything is possible.
2nd guy: On the way to discovering what we love, we will find everything we hate, everything that blocks our paht and what we desire.
3rd guy: It'll never be comfortable for those who seek what is not onthe market
2nd guy: A systematic questioning of the idea of happiness.
4th guy: We'll cut the vocal chords of every empowered speaker. We'll yank the social symbols through the looking glass. We'll devalue socieities currency.
3rd guy: confront the firmiliar. Soceity is a fraud so complete and venal that it demands to be destroyed beyong the power of memory to recall it's existence.
1st guy: Where there is fire, we will carry gasoline.
2nd guy: ...To interrupt the continuim of everyday experience and all the normal expectations that go with it.
3rd guy: ..To live as if something actually depended on one's actions.
4th guy: rupture the spell of …

The trick is to combine your waking, rational abilities with the infinite possibilities of your dreams

"I had a friend once who told me that the worst mistake that you can make is to think that you are alive, when really you're asleep in life's waiting room. The trick is to combine your waking rational abilities with the infinite possibilities of your dreams, because if you can do that, you can do anything. Did you ever have a job that you hated, worked really hard at? Long, hard day at work, finally you get to go home, get in bed, close your eyes ... and immediately you wake up and realize that the whole day at work had been a dream. It's bad enough that you sell your waking life for minimun wage, but now they get your dreams for free!"
- Guy Forsythe (Waking Life)

Crazy thought eh?

my utterly predictable life

"wasn't it the way
that our laughs filled the night
and how our conversation
felt so fresh,
that made everything seem to
finally feel so right.
and now it is all seeming to
come to such
an abrupt stop -
faster then this started
(even though I knew this was inevitable)
. . .
it stops
with you following a dream
that you deserve so very much
and me none the wiser to the
what might have been.

you've become so close to me
in such a short time
that i feel i've known you
for years...
and still
i guess this will
be as far as i get to
telling you
my true thoughts
and feelings
. . .
for now"


This Is Absolutly the Most Exciting TIme We Could Have Hoped To Be Alive

"Wanderer: Hey
Wiley: Hey
Wanderer: Are you a dreamer?
Wiley: Yeah
Wanderer: I haven't seen too many of you around lately. Things have been tough lately for dreamers. They say dreaming is dead and noone does it anymore. it's not dead, it's just been forgotten, removed from our language. Nobody teaches it, so nobody knows it exists. The dreamer is banished to obscurity. Well, I'm trying to change all that, and I hope you are too... by dreaming, everyday. Dreaming with out hands and dreaming with our minds. Our planet is facing the greatest problems it's ever faced...ever. So, whatever you do, don't be bored. This is absolutly the most exciting time we could have possibly hoped to be alive, and things are just getting started."

-Waking Life

*I love this one!!!

Maybe I only exist in your mind

"Ethan: I keep thinking about something you said.
Julie: Something I said?
Ethan: Yeah. About how you often feel like you're observing your life from the perspective of an old women about to die. You remember that?
Julie: Yeah. I still feel that way sometimes; like i'm looking back on my lif. Like my waking life is her memories.
Ethan: Mmm, exactly. I heard that Tim Leary said, as he was dying, that he was looking forward to the moment when his body was dead, but his brain was still alive - you know how they say that there's still 6-12 mins of brain activity after everything else has shut down?
Julie: Mmm
Ethan: And a second of dream conciousness, right? Well, thats infinitly longer then a waking second. You know what I'm saying?
Julie: Oh yeah yeah yeah, definitely. For instance, I wake up and it's 10:12 and then I go back to sleep and I have those long, intricate, beautiful dreams that seem to last for hours and then I wake up and it's...10:13
Ethan: Yeah, exact…