Out of the Ashes

brought up from the early blogging days - but thought that the renaming of the blog needed some extra explaination.... anyway here it is ... "spiraling out of control when will this neverending ride come to a stop? i cant see in front of me as it quickly disappears into hindsight and i have lost all sense of direction anyway i may look calm and cool but that is no reflection of the raging emotions my soul is fighting (it has seemed a loosing battle from the start) i wish i felt the way i come across so strong able to handle anything but the truth is ... i am weak, broken and bruised from the twists and turns life's wild ride is conjuring up i have hit one to many walls and stumbled in the dark on so many roots that i have had to start crawling lacking the strength to make it any other way one day i will make it to the end of this but for now all i can do is wait, keep the faith, push on through this journey cause right now I do not

"What would you say if i told you that there was very little to be afraid of .. that by supressing your want of love you are holding back on something that may be worth more then you have begun to realize. Would you then open up your eyes and maybe your heart to the possibility of more ... (with me... ) i can't help but want you to understand, to open your eyes to all of the possibilities. to let yourself go and let your heart and soul open up to me. at this fork in the road oF your life, which path are you going to follow? Will you trust me? . . . will you trust me with your heart?" ac

I love this picture for many reasons... but I think what strikes me the most about it.. is how the reflection is a perfect image of the real thing --

We never know exactly where God is leading us ... but he gives us previews... and no matter where it is we are going - we can always have the confidence and assurance that he knows are hearts and is leading us to a place of further intamacy and greater joy in him then we have ever known... although it may be rough at times... and it can look unpleasing to our human senses... in the end - you will fall on your knees in awe at all he has done - even though the pain - even when it's scary.