Saturday July 7th 2007 - The day I arrived here - beautiful Victoria BC Canada. It is crazy to think that was a decade ago - just shy of 24 years old - not having a clue what was coming, only that I needed a change. A chance to find myself , a chance to see what my heart wanted, what my soul was crying out for. All I knew is I needed a change. I had done all the growing up that London Ontario had for me ... so it was time to take everything - all my preconceived notions of my self and what others thought of me - or what I thought they thought of me. I need to try and leave that behind and find the room to make the mistakes and have the set backs without judgement of familiarity and ideas of what you were to become - those things in life that can hold us back (without even realizing it). I needed to take all my hurts, the darkness I lived in, and the pain that I hid with me and find a way out, find out who I truly was. I knew, deep down that this was the only way I was going to see
"how do you not see me? and how can i feel so passionatly about us when it as never even crossed your mind? and how can i see something that is so far beyond possiblity?" ac
"You know, they say that dreams are only real as long as they last. Couldn't you say the same things about life? See, there's a lot of us that are out there that are mapping that mind-body relationship of dreams. We're called the oneironauts; We're the explorers of the dream world. Really, it's just about the two opposing states of consciousness, whichc don't really oppose at all. See, in the waking world, the neurosystem inhibits the activation of the vividness of memories. . . . So, you have these seratonic neurons that inhibit hallucinations, that they themselves are inhibited, during REM (rapid eye movement) sleep. See, this allows dreams to appear real, while preventing competition from other perceptual processes. This is why dreams are mistaken for reality. To the funtional system of neural activity that creates our world, there is no difference between dreaming a perception and an action, and actually the waking perception and action." Dream Guy
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