fog

i'm so alone
and beated down
and
am being consumed
by this black cloud
that has
engolfed me
-
I can't even
see myself
. . .
forget
anything else
in here
. . .
it's so easy to believe
the in
things that
are circling my head
because you
have left me
alone
and there
is nothing else
but the hope I
once had
to
allow me to believe
. . .
if you're there
I need to hear you
. . .
If you're with me
grab me
touch me -
remind my heart
again what my
head has
forgotten so easily
. . .
I need you to come
to my rescue and
remind me once
again
of everything
I used to be
so sure of
. . .
please
awake me from
this nightmare"

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