The Love Thing

I've been recently been thinking about the whole "love thing". Being a girl and almost 22 and having a bunch of my childhood friends married (or at least engaged). I have to sit back and ask myself what this is all about. How did I get here? Where is here? and why is it so far away from where I thought I would be?
Of course with age comes a bit of wisdom (granted it comes very slowly) and I have realized that teenage dating is not exactly the wisest of idea's on any levels - not that is doesn't work out sometimes, but it dont' exactly have a high success rate. And is rarely taken seriously.
Now, all of a sudden, for me, dating takes on new meaning. All whole bunch of new meaning and ideas that used to be in the back of our head as something that would happen later. But, now later is here and i'm as single as they come - but i guess you could say it is for a good reason.
Being someone who is completely intrigued with the idea of true love. Of a love that passes all tests and is so pure and strong that you cannot go on living without "that person" in your life. I cannot wait to love a man so totally and completely - the idea of loving him even when you hate them, even when everything about him is hitting a nerve - You know that deep inside you love him. The "for better or for worse" idea - that says, "i WILL love you no matter what we go through" - that is what love and marriage means to me... and if/when I stand before my God and say my vows I will not only "mean", but understand those words. And also realized that a relationship is doomed without God being in the center of it.
So, mainly for me... love is no longer about how soon it happens, or what the age difference is for the most part, or the weird quirks "they" have- but that when I find the person that I love - I will need to know in my heart that I would be able to stand say that i truely cannot live without this man and I will stand beside him through anything - cause love is not just the cool feelings and the butterflies - the way your heart races or how you can barely breath when you're around them or even the weak feeling in you're legs. Cause feelings come and go - and the rest of your life is big commitment that to many people feel they are ready for (or niave about) at very young ages... all over the "feelings" they think they have - Love is so much more than that - it's a promise, it comes from the very deepest part of your heart that you will always hold on too. a promise made not just to each other but to God.
Maybe you could call my a hopeless romatice or maybe still just plain Niave that this kind of love exists, but I love the idea of a pure love just the same - the 1 Chorinthians 13 love - it is nothing us humans will ever completely acheive or understand but a person that we should all strive to be like.
"Love is patient, Love it kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud, it is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always trusts, always hopes, always persveres. Love never fails.


suntea said…
Hi, this is Santy from Indonesia. I just want to're still young...take your time and choose well. I know love will come your way.

All the best for you :)

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